Clearvoyance

As I woke from a dream this morning... This energy of a filled hug from Jeaneane Garofalo, as she sees me walking away from her in a movie theater and she says "Aren't you going to watch your movie? You're in it." I kept walking and then the words sunk in and I walked back to her and asked to take a picture with my doppelganger. She agreed and we hugged. I woke up.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015
8:45AM

I couldn't feel bad but, I did. I was awake at 4:15 AM walking the dogs around the neighborhood off leach and in my pj's. There is where I went unorganized, at 4am. I miss having a schedule to abide by. 

It is now 11:02 PM and I have been dabbling in so many things. I painted my unicorn from the "21st Century"


Wednesday - HUMP DAY - Get active

Paint on Canvas with Acrylics
Coffee and Yoga in the patio
Organize inbox in GMAIL
Keep ideas organized and following through with doing them
Create a website for the gretchenuribe.com and ecolovebug.com
Contact for Groupon Classes to take place

Today is day 15 from surgery recovery. I felt the need to go do something to make me feel pretty. So my mom drove me to my salon and dropped me off. The owner and hairdresser that usually pamper me were very attentive and noticed my slow pace the second I stepped into the salon.

I have become such a lady with this process. Every step I take, I make sure my knees touch. I have been wearing only dresses and making sure to wear sturdy flat shoes; converse, boots, but flat. Every step I take, is somewhat painful but I know that little casual movement is necessary.

At the salon, I told them everything I had not expressed in the past. I had tumors, I had surgery, and I am in recovery. To mention my mom saw a picture of the withdrawn tumors and she said they were the size of a baseball/ golfballs. I had about 7 that were very visible. I made every effort to play it off as a minor thing.... happens to everyone.... "Everyone that doesn't give birth with their body is requesting it" said my hairstylist!

I though I was depressed with the follow up visit from Wednesday when my doctor said I was going to have to wait on everything I want to do. And just do little bits of everything I did want to do. I told him my experience in walking. It took me an hour to walk a mile, I told him. He said it should take you six hours, and smiled. I was like, I'm the kind of girl that hikes the hills at 5 miles an hour. He said well, you'll get there, in the meantime lots of resting. Which I have been doing. Listen to your doctor, he knows best.

Meeting Dr. J. Goldberg

I want to think back and remember the names of my doctors at the pervious hospital I had gone to. I guess because the process was so separated from each exam; Pap test, ultrasound, OBGYN visit, and test there wasn't much that could be done in the corporate realm. All I was ever offered was pain medication, birth control and told I was too young for surgery (25 year old at the time).

Meeting Dr. Jay Goldberg was so surreal. He was direct, informative, detailed and organized. Every time he said he wanted to do a test, I though, I was going to see him for a year and a half until he could say no to me at the end. That was the image that had been previously placed in my mind. Doc Jay was nothing like that!!

He introduced himself, examined me and went over the pain I was having and locating it. Then we met up in his office (same day) went over my posture and outward physical pain I was reflecting. He drew me a plan of what the procedure would look like, asked to see if I had any questions and then assigned me to go take a ultrasound after our meeting. We both went in with the ultrasound technician and reviewed my uterus, on screen, reviewed and advised what he recommended. He said we could see what needs to be removed and we then went over options back in his office, after the ultrasound.

In my words, the following options were given:

1.) More pills; pain pills, and birth control pills.

2.) We Zap the nerves that are sending blood to the tumors, but it is high risk if you ever plan on procreating.

3.) Cut open under my bikini line and withdrawal all tumor mass via abdominal myomectomy. 

In a day, Doctor Goldberg and I went over all my medical history, options, viewed my internal issues, options in proceeding with my decision of (option 3, which I have been hoping for for many year now) and said his surgical coordinator would be contacting me to see what dates would be available to move forward with the procedure. 

Seriously, Impressed. I guess that is what 5 years worth of research gets me. So, I am sharing. For those who need guidance and haven't found what they seek. We are women, learning about our bodies and have no reason to shy away of our 'private parts'. Take care and empower women with similar notions.

Yelp; Beverly Hills, CA. Women's Center, Surgical Department, Cedars-Sinai. Dr. Jay Goldberg.

Women's Health Services at Cedars-Sinai

Women's Health Services at Cedars-Sinai. The experience with updating my medical insurance was a great decision! 

I was able to do all the research needed to update the changes to Aetna insurance and contact the available medical facilities to make appointments in November (annual open enrollment). 

Reviewing my options as to what type of surgeries are available, what type of coverage is can be used and contacting the programs that can be used for the fibroid issues that I  had found out about myself. 

http://www.cedars-sinai.edu/Patients/Programs-and-Services/Womens-Health-Services/

Pre_OP: Fibroid Tumors

Figuring it out. The following steps that I went through in finding out that there was a cancerous cell lingering in our family gene. Made me cautious of what I ate, how I ate, and the healthy steps that I needed to take to stay on top of the gene pole.

It seems I have watched myself be a better person to myself as the days pass. In everything that I try to work on, it is my greatest strength to take a step forward into the unknown with determination. For my future and for knowing what steps I should be taking.

There was a time in the days that passed between periods that I had uncontrollable pain. I tried readjusting, trying to change my workouts; making leg day over abdominal day, because of the pain I was enduring. Sometime between knowing my period was 2 weeks away and having cramps as if I were giving birth to a newborn. (I really don't know what that feels like, but from my detailed explanation to my doctors and ultrasound technicians. They were very much in agreement that I needed to live a healthier life without the side effects of tumors.)

who: me
what: tumors
when: July 2009 - March 2013
where: Pelvic Zone/ Abdominal Myomectomy
why: Physical Pain